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The day started off all wrong.  Nothing changed from last semester.  I mean, at the end of last semester, things got better.  But it seems that the winter break erased all that was cleared up… and this semester is starting off rough again.  I don’t understand why she hates me so much and wants to challenge everything I do.  We barely know each other, are practically strangers, yet I get the feeling that she wants me dead.  Yes, that’s how strong the hatred is- I certainly feel it.  And so I woke up this morning feeling a heaviness upon my heart, my mind.  Maybe it’s karma… and I try to be tough on the outside, but on the inside, my heart aches knowing that I’m hated by someone that much.  I shouldn’t care but it makes me wonder about myself.  I think about how many other people I bother and what is it that I’m doing to deserve this feeling.  I mind my own business, really.  I move about in a robotic fashion these days, without a care to who I pass, who I speak with, who I sit next to.  I keep to myself because I’ve decided to lock myself away.  And I’ve been doing okay when I don’t worry about miscellaneous things.  Today… today… it was not okay.  My mind was heavy with thoughts.  Why won’t people leave me alone?  I’ve been okay with this new way of living- doing what I have to do and then retreating into my room silently.  But no- she wants to challenge the peacefulness that I’ve found.  Does it bother her that she doesn’t bother me anymore?  Immature.  That’s what she is.  A child.  I don’t play these games anymore.

In the past, it was bitterness that I always felt after passive confrontations with her.  Today, I felt sadness.  I put on a smile anyway when I went to class.  I’ve realized that sometimes, it’s easier to lie to cover what’s underneath.  I don’t want anyone else involved but me.

I was surprised today- truly surprised.  I waited for my class to begin.  The class was still pretty empty and everyone was occupied with something.  I sighed and was looking at my phone when suddenly someone jerked my chair a bit, scaring me for a second, and said “Sorry, excuse me- I’m gonna sit here.”  He sat down next to me and gave me a big smile.  I nodded and was turning back to my phone when he started talking to me.  He asked me all different questions… about me.  For the first time in my life, someone was genuinely interested in me.  I didn’t understand- at first, I gave short, concise responses, but he wanted more.  I was so surprised that I didn’t feel comfortable in the situation.  I kept trying to turn away but he persistently pulled me back into conversation.  I wanted to keep to myself but at the same time, I couldn’t ignore him.  He introduced himself to me.  His name is- let’s call him Magic.  Magic dug deeper and deeper into my roots.  We just met and already we were talking about my hometown.  He actually knew my hometown and to be honest, it kind of freaked me out.  But at the same time, I was fascinated at his curiosity about me.  Again, no one, no one I’ve ever met has cared so much to want to get to know me.  I’ve always offered general information as a courtesy… but today I didn’t and Magic asked it all.  He even asked if I was happy here.  I looked at him strangely for a moment, not sure whether or not he knew what I was feeling from the morning.  I gave him a vague answer, telling him “roommate troubles.”  He gave me a nod of understanding.  A quick silence and he broke the awkwardness with a tease.  Throughout the class, he kept making comments to me and at one point, squeezed my forearm (???).

So Magic was a little strange.  But he got my mind off of the heaviness in me- hence the name “Magic.”  It’s weird how he came out of nowhere.  I even feel like I might have told him too much.  I had a smile on, to cover the sadness underneath… I’m not sure if he knew.  I think he did because he kept asking how I was feeling and saying that he knows.  Usually, I’m not one to be extremely religious and “talk God”, because quite frankly… I’m Buddhist, but I wonder if God sent Magic to me today as a way to ease the sadness and heaviness.  His sudden appearance in my life today is strange and worth contemplating.  Of all the seats that were available, he sat in the one next to me.  He must have been placed there.

I don’t care if I never see Magic again or even if I never talk to him again.  He turned my day around.  Just when I started to believe that people hate me for my mere existence, he showed up and proved otherwise.

We never know why we meet the people that we do or why we do the things that we do.  But there’s a reason for everything.  And no matter how bizarre the situation is, there’s always a good reason.  For every down, there’s an up.

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Growing Love

It seems like a lot of relationships out there these days are based on the fact that one person “grew” on the other.  It’s fairly common, no?  But in a way, it kind of seems… romantic, I guess.  It’s as if one person is so in love with the other that they can’t take any sort of rejection.  They’re… motivated.  And if they work hard enough, eventually, the other person will slowly begin to fall in love with that person.  Of course there are situations in which it never follows through.  BUT, usually, the case is a happily-ever-after story.

You’re probably wondering how on earth I started thinking about this topic.  Well, I was having a conversation with a good friend the other day and it seemed like she was having this issue.  So that got me thinking, “huh,,, when love grows on you?”

So here I am, thinking about this.  Even last night, before I fell asleep, I was contemplating about this kind of love.  Here are the results:

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It Started with a Kiss

It Started with a Kiss

Remember the drama It Started with a Kiss (I’ll be referring to the Taiwanese one)?  Well, as I thought about it, Zhi Shu and Xiang Qin fell in love this way.  In the beginning, Zhi Shu thought of Xiang Qin as a nuisance and was always telling her to bug off.  He simply thought she was stupid and foolish.  But Xiang Qin was persistent with her love for Zhi Shu.  She would follow him everywhere and try to get close with him.  After a long while, Zhi Shu started to like her, just the slightest bit!  One day, Xiang Qin just wasn’t annoying to him anymore; he began to enjoy her company.  In the end, he rightfully stole her back from Ah Jin and they married and lived happily ever after.  So, you see, Xiang Qin used this method to captivate Zhi Shu’s heart.  Although she was a pest to him at first, she eventually became someone he loved very dearly.  And if you watched ISWAK2, Zhi Shu even tells this to his little brother, Yu Shu.  Yu Shu asks him how he started to like Xiang Qin, and Zhi Shu responds with “Every day, she would annoy me so much, and then one day, that annoyed feeling went away.  That’s when I started to like her.”

Devil Beside You

Devil Beside You

In Devil Beside You, same sort of love AGAIN!  In this story, we had Ah Meng stalking Qi Yue.  Omgzzz I remember, in the beginning, Ah Meng was such a creeper.  He was everywhere Qi Yue went!  And all the while, Qi Yue didn’t even like him!  She liked Yuan Yi!  But, again, Ah Meng was always bugging her and making her do stuff, and pissing her off, and blah blah blah…. Eventually, she fell in love with him!  She rejected Yuan Yi and chose Ah Meng.  Sadly, the story did not end here.  It went onto another issue that I won’t talk about here.  But the point is, is that Ah Meng’s love grew on Qi Yue!

Boys Over Flowers

Boys Over Flowers

One of my favorites is the story of Geum Jan Di and Gu Jun Pyo, from Boys Over Flowers.  So, maybe this isn’t ideal for our topic, but in some ways it fits.  Think about it: first, Jan Di and Jun Pyo were absolute enemies.  Jun Pyo even gave Jan Di the Red Card from F4!  *gasp*  But Jan Di had a lot of courage and stood up to Jun Pyo!  She stood up to him every single time he tried to impose an F4 punishment on her.  Now, Jun Pyo never faced such an opponent.  So this ticked him off.  For days, he would think about Jan Di and how to intimidate her enough to make her kneel down to him and apologize for going against him.  Finally, all this thinking about Jan Di made him fall in love with her.  Only, Jan Di was already in love with someone else: F4 member, Yoon Ji Hoo.  And there was NO WAY she would fall in love with a mean maniac like Jun Pyo.  Yet, Jun Pyo was intent on making Jan Di fall in love with him.  The more she repelled him, the stronger his love for her was.  Weird.  But obviously, in the end, they ended up together.  Jan Di grew to like Jun Pyo.  She realized this when she was on a date with Ji Hoo; all she could think about was Jun Pyo.  At the end of the drama, Jun Pyo proposed to Jan Di and they lived happily-ever-after!

Fated to Love You

Fated to Love You

And lastly, one of the best Taiwanese dramas ever, Fated to Love You!  The chemistry between Ji Cun Xi and Chen Xin Yi was played so well by Ethan Ruan and Joe Chen.  Anyways, in this drama, Cun Xi also began thinking that Xin Yi was an annoying pest to his life!  He was annoyed that he might hurt the relationship between him and Anna.  So he kind of took advantage of Xin Yi’s goodwill and naivete.  Even though she was very patient with and kind to Cun Xi, he treated her badly because he was so annoyed at her presence in his life.  It wasn’t until Xin Yi lost their baby and left his life that he had realized that he actually enjoyed her presence in his life, despite how he always yelled at her.  So there you have it.  He, like all the other characters I talked about, allowed Xin Yi’s love to grow on him.

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That’s what I thought about before sleeping last night. 🙂  Haha… But do you really think if someone works hard enough at chasing the one they love, it’ll work?  I happen to believe so.  It’s kind of like magic?  XD  One person can chase and chase and chase, and if they do it at the right time, the other person will slowly begin to fall in love with them.  A type of brainwashing in love if you ask me…  But, it sounds cute enough.  And for the person who’s chasing, their lover ends up being their prized possession.  As for the lover being chased, they, well, feel so valued and special.  Isn’t that a wonderful ending?

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